Sunday, March 16, 2014

Three Month Update

When Christian was first born we were told that three months is the magic age. Boy, were they right! He is turning into a little person with such a wonderful personality!

So many changes have happened between two and three months. The biggest accomplishment is that he rolled from his stomach to his back... just once. And now he refuses to do it again.  Jason wasn't able to see it, so of course, when I tried to show him, Christian refused to perform. He also likes to be entertained when he is awake. Before now, we were able to snuggle on the couch during awake times. Now, he gets fussy if he has been fed and napped. It took me a few days to figure out what he needed, but as soon as he had a toy to play with, he was content for hours. Motherhood is all about troubleshooting. Do you want food? No. Do you want a nap? No. Here, maybe a toy will help? Yes! I live for tiny successes.

I found the baby channel. I have a hard time watching, but it is like crack to Christian. If it put it on, he stops whatever he is doing and just stares at it. I tried Disney Junior (at least those shows have somewhat of a plot) but he started fussing until I changed it back. It has lots of bright colors and shapes on it. Whatever they are doing, they know how to get my baby's attention!

The smiles for his bottle at month two have turned into big belly laughs and HUGE smiles when he sees mommy and daddy. He even smiles at the dogs, that have little to no interest in him now. My favorite smile from him is first thing in the morning. I go to get him from his crib and he gives me the biggest smile! It makes my entire day.

His sleeping pattern is amazing. I can't take any credit for it either, he did it all on his own. For a while, he wasn't going to bed at night until midnight, waking up at 4:30am for a feeding and then sleeping until 9ish. Now, he goes down between 9 and 10 and sleeps until 7 or 8. In the past three weeks he has only woken up for a late night feeding once. The first time he slept through the night I woke up in a panic around 6:30am. Thankfully, I just looked on our video monitor and was put at ease (I had to stare at it for a few seconds just to make sure he was breathing).

Here are a couple quick facts about my big three month old:

  • He weighs 14(ish) pounds. He is now seeing his doctor every other month, so we didn't have a check up this month. I had to weigh him myself. 
  • He is wearing some 3-6 month clothes, but most of them are 6 months.
  • If he is fussing in the car, all we have to do is turn on Darius Rucker and he is silent. At least he has good taste ;)
  • We are finishing up the last box of size 1 diapers that we got from my shower (such a blessing to have received so many as gifts. We didn't have to buy any for him) and ready for size 2 diapers. Size 1 diapers are a bit snug on his pot belly and thunder thighs.
  • He will lay on his activity mat for hours between feedings and naps. 
  • He eats 5-6 ounces of formula every 3-5 hours during the day.

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

When I Leave the Room

I've had this song in my head off and on since I heard it a couple months ago. I sing parts of it to Christian almost every night before I put him to bed. The first time I heard it, I cried. Not just tears in my eyes, full on CRYING. Natalie Grant's songs have spoken to me in the past, but this one is exactly how I feel on a daily basis with my little man. At the end of the day all I can do is thank God for our little blessing and giving me the strength to be mother than Christian needs. Through struggles and failures, I will be on my knees seeking guidance and asking Jesus to watch over him when I can not (and even when I can) be there for him. The song is "When I Leave the Room" and here are the lyrics. 

Good night, Looks like we made it through the day
The moon sighs and I know that we're okay
Sleep tight, I love to watch you drift away
I would come with you but on my knees I'll stay

Good night, Five little fingers holding mine
Take flight, Into your dreams and lullabyes
There's nothing more that I can do
But just fall more in love with you
And ask the angel armies to stand by
When I leave the room

I'm gonna fail you, I already have
Ten thousand times I will fall down flat
You'll have a seat in the front row
of everything I don't know
And all I'm trying to be
You'll see

Good night, There will be storms that we come through
In time, We will slay dragons me and you
I'll always wanna hold you tight
Keep you safe with all my might
So I will leave Jesus next to you
When I leave the room

And you will run ahead
As if you know the way
And I will pray more
Then once you'd have to pray
There will be words we can't take back
Silences too
And I'll be on my knees, You'll see

One night, When I am old and unsteady
You'll want me to fight
But I'll tell you that I'm ready
When there's nothing left to do
I will still be loving you
Then you'll fold your fingers into mine
And I will let Jesus hold you tight
When I leave the room

Here is the video from YouTube. Mommies, have the tissues ready!

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

One Day of Photos

I have been so terrible about updating my blog. I had an entire blog written out when Christian was 6 weeks old, but I couldn't decide on a title. I left it for a few hours that turned into weeks because Christian will be 12 weeks on Thursday. Oh well, one for my eyes only I guess. I saw this idea from Emily at Adventures of Alex & Emily and thought it was a great way to depict the life of a stay at home mom. Not sure where the day goes most of the time, but I figured it out by doing a picture per hour for an entire day... Here we go!

7:57 am
Christian wakes up. I hear him on the monitor and I hit the ground running. I have to change his diaper, mix a bottle, and get it in his mouth before the total meltdown happens. It hardly ever works out. I am usually mixing the bottle with the sounds of a baby who thinks he is about to die. I don't have a picture of this because I do it so quickly, I didn't have time. So here he is post-breakfast. He either plays on his activity mat or bouncer right after his morning meal. Yesterday it was the bouncer.

9:00 am
After tending to the baby and the dogs, it was finally time for my first cup of coffee and a little "me time" before the day of craziness begins. All three babies went back to sleep for the time being, so I got to catch up on my DVR. I finished Nashville and a leftover Tonight Show with Jimmy Fallon from Friday night. I am addicted to it! But never watch it at night. After a day of running, I can't stay away until midnight! But I am getting ahead of myself.

10:00 am (ish)
I spent this entire hour on the phone with Comcast (or is it Xfinity? Are they the same thing? I am so confused by it). I usually love their customer service. They are always very friendly and take care of whatever I ask promptly. Well, not this time. After being transferred three different times over the course of an hour and 15 mins, I finally got our service changed. It wasn't what I had planned on doing for a hour, but it got done and I could concentrate on other pressing matters. Like a shower.

11:15 am
Time for lunch for the little man. He woke up from his nap and I was able to get a bottle in his mouth before the meltdown. Yess! 

12:05 pm
Time to head out for a bit. We went to Target for a few items and ended up spending 45 mins walking around. I try to get out of the house everyday so I don't go stir crazy. Even if it is just to take a walk outside (when it's nice) or a walk around Target (when it's cold). 

1:00 pm
Every weekday between 1:00 and 2:00, I talk to my mom during her lunch break. We have been doing this for years. Even when I was working, I had lunch at 1:00 and she has it at noon in California. It worked out perfectly, especially with my increasingly busy life with our mini human. Christian was very happy to spend his time playing on his activity mat. He is hitting and grabbing his toys with the cutest laugh I've ever heard!

2:10 pm
For those who didn't see my Facebook post about mine and Jason's "bet" on the Oscars, here is a screen shot.

I won 11-10, but since I love my hubby so much, I decided to vacuum yesterday anyway. Plus, our house REALLY needed it. We got a new vacuum a couple months ago and I have never used it. I started vacuuming the living room and realized I was just fluffing up the carpet, it wasn't picking anything up. Great. This is why I don't vacuum. So I clean out the filter and try to empty the cylinder. I can't figure out how to open it. I try everything. Twisting, turning, pulling... nothing. So much for a clean carpet surprise for Jason. I put the vacuum away, defeated. 

3:00 pm
Time for lunch for me. I sometimes forget to eat throughout the day until I get light headed. I put Christian down for his afternoon nap and had a delicious lettuce wrap. It was a brief moment to myself. I pretend I like time to myself, but I would rather have my chubster with me.

4:05 pm
After another feeding for this bottomless pit, he wanted some mommy time (and mommy always wants some baby time!). I love watching how much he changes day to day, from being a tiny newborn to turning into a baby with more expressions than I could ever imagine! 

5:00 pm (on the dot!)
Misty has an internal clock. She knows she usually gets fed at 5:00 so she stares at me with insanely intense eyes until I decide it's time to eat. This time, even Christian seemed a little uncomfortable with her stare. We were still having fun an hour later. Seriously, how could I do anything else but bond with this little one?!

6:20 pm
Jason is now home, dinner is started, and I realize I am still being stared at by a black dog. Oops, gotta feed the four legged babies! Lacy always pretends like what I feed her is less than edible. Like I don't buy you all natural, grain free, delicious food? You eat better than we do, little girl. She does eat, eventually. I think she just likes to wait until Misty is done (3 seconds later) so she has to watch her eat. She definitely has a mean side.

7:00 pm
Everyone has been fed and it was time to sit down with my loving husband and a glass of wine. We watched Catch Me If You Can last night, I had never seen it. Wow, how did I miss such a great movie? 

8:35 pm
The house was asleep. Except for me, of course. I knew Christian would be up in the next hour to hour and a half for one final feeding before he goes down for the night. I caught up on a little reading. I am still reading Raising Real Men by Hal and Melanie Young. HIGHLY recommended for anyone blessed with a little boy.

9:12 pm
I remembered I had clothes in the dryer, so I put down the book to fold it so nothing was looming in the morning. It was a load of tiny pants, onesies and sleepers. I LOVE tiny clothes. It breaks my heart that the tiny clothes are getting less tiny every day.

10:12 pm
My head hits the pillow and I fall asleep to the sounds of Christian's soother playing in the room across the hall along with Jason and the two dogs softly snoring. I definitely wasn't productive in the normal sense, but as a mommy of a constantly growing and changing little man, it was a very productive day. Sorry no picture from the end of the day.

Sunday, January 12, 2014

One Month Later

One month ago a tiny miracle came into our lives. Christian was born. I know I talk about him constantly now, but he really is my life. Everything I do revolves around him right now. It's the life of a newborn's mommy... Well, it's the life of a mommy in general. Here is a little update on the changes that have happened in the past month.

Sadly, I had to switch to formula due to not producing enough milk for him on my own. It seemed like overnight I went from enough to nothing. I wasn't even producing 4 oz in a 6 hour period. Needless to say, he was hungry all the time. He wasn't really gaining weight, so I made the emotional, but logical decision to switch to formula. It was the best thing I could have done for him. Since his 2 week appointment, he has gain 1 lb and 5 oz. He is now up to 8 lbs 8 oz. Growing everyday!

He is trying to lift his head on his own and succeeds for a few seconds before it flops down either into my waiting hand or shoulder. He loves tummy time, temporarily. He seems to be trying to crawl while on his tummy, but ends up in him moving his knees up and down.

He is now in size 1 diapers and has outgrown most of his newborn clothing. Mostly because of his length. He has gained 2 1/2 inches in length since he was born. Who knew he would be tall and skinny? ;)

My mom has been here since January 2nd to spend time with the 3 of us and help out with Christian. She has been such a lifesaver and has even taken baby duty a couple times at night. Just one more plus to Christian being on formula!

Jason went back to work on January 6th after having 24 days off to spend with us. It was hard having him go back, but definitely a blessing to have my mom here. I don't know what I am going to do when I am on my own starting on the 21st.

We had newborn pictures taken when he was 10 days old by Erin Davenport Photography and were blown away by how amazing they turned out! She did such an amazing job capturing exactly what we had in mind. We got some beautiful family photos that we will cherish forever.

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Hello 2014!

I know a lot of people post about how they can't believe how quickly a year has gone by. For us, 2013 went by in the blink of an eye. It is definitely up there with 2011 as one of the best years of our lives. It started out with a lot of unknowns. We were not sure if and when we would get pregnant, but ended with the best Christmas gift we could ever imagine.

In January, we decided to buy a home. Within just a couple weeks we found the perfect home, made and offer and the owner accepted. We moved into our home in early March, then just a couple weeks later found out that we would soon be a family of three. On March 18th I peed on a stick and it changed our lives forever. Eight short months later we welcomed our son, Christian, into our lives and our hearts. 2014 will bring so many firsts in his little life and he will turn into a little person instead of the cute little poop machine he is now ;)

 In 2013 we celebrated two years of marriage and have been together for eight years. We have celebrated nine Christmases and nine New Years together. Jason is my best friend and the most amazing husband and father. 2014 will bring another PCS (Permanent Change of Station) for us to who knows where. But we are up for a change and can't wait to see where God wants to send us next. I definitely keep the phrase "bloom where you are planted" in mind when we move to a new place. We try to hit the ground running, and this next move won't be any different.

This year we traveled to California for two huge events. My dad turned 60 in July and it was so wonderful to meet my niece who was born in June, and spend some quality time with my family that we do not see often enough. We were also there in October to see my best friend, Alex, get married. She look fabulous walking down the aisle to marry the man of her dreams. I am so thankful to be a part of their special day!

In October, my mom and good friend, Laura, threw me a baby shower for our little man. My mom flew in from California, my boo, Valerie, flew in from Ohio on her way to California for her twin, Alex's, wedding and my friend, Michelle, flew in from Tennessee. I am so blessed to be loved by these lovely ladies! The shower was amazingly beautiful! They did an amazing job decorating and planning a great afternoon for me and Christian.

Overall, 2013 was a year to remember and I can't wait to see what 2014 has in store for us! Here are a few random pictures of events that made 2013 amazing :)

Snowboarding with the Hare's!

Alex's bridal shower with my bests.

Maternity shoot 12 days before Christian was born.

Friday, December 20, 2013

Christian's Birth Story

Has it really been almost 6 months since I blogged? Well, I've been busy growing a baby. And it is definitely hard work!

A lot went on in this pregnancy that I didn't want to put out on the internet until we knew 100% that mama and baby were healthy and safe. Early in my pregnancy they diagnosed me with chronic hypertension (high blood pressure that started before I got pregnant). I had no idea I even had high blood pressure (still not convinced since it has been wonderful since he was born...) until they told me. They said that it could be "white coat high blood pressure" where I get nervous at the doctor's office. Call it whatever you want, they were a little nervous. Well, around week 20 it went down and I was in normal range... until my 36 week check. My numbers were way higher than they like to see, so they tested me for pre eclampsia. If it came back positive, I would be delivering that day. It came back negative. They did a blood test that day to check for a condition called Cholestasis, which is an excess of bile in the liver, and if it is bad enough can cause liver failure. The #1 symptom of this is itchy skin... and, boy, did my skin itch!! This was right before Thanksgiving, so I knew we wouldn't get results from this test until my 38 week check. 37 week check went well, nothing too exciting. BP still high, but they weren't real worried about it. (Keep in mind, I see a different doctor every time I go in... I HATE to complain about free medical care through the military, but my OB care was a joke). Here is my last belly picture before delivery :)

Ok, onto the actual birth story. December 11th was the day of my 38 week appointment. I told Jason I wanted to bring the hospital bags just in case something happens. I knew we wouldn't be delivering that day, but I like to be prepared all the time. My appointment was at 8am, so Jason and I drove separately so he could go to work afterwards. We get into my appointment to find out that I do have Cholestasis, not too bad, but mixed with my blood pressure, they didn't want to take any risks. They told us to go upstairs and check into Labor and Delivery, we are having this baby today! I definitely got tears in my eyes. After 8 1/2 months, I finally get to meet this little monster that has been growing inside of me. Of course, I knew we were in for a long labor since I was only dilated to a 2cm at that point. Fort Carson won't even admit you unless you are at a 4cm (or have some other issue, like me).

We head upstairs and get comfortable in our room, ready for the long day/night (possibly another day) ahead of us. It is around 10am when they start the first round of the induction drug. They told me they would do 3 rounds of it, 4 hours in between each. So, we are looking at 12 hours before anything really happens. Even though we brought our bags, there was still some things we forgot at home, plus we had 2 cars and there was no way Jason was going to allow me driving myself home afterwards. So Jason leaves for home (a 45 min drive) and immediately I start having contractions. Not bad ones, but I definitely know the induction drug is working.

Throughout the next 4 hours (Jason came back about 2 hours after he left) the contractions were getting stronger and stronger. Still not horrible, but they are getting there. They check me before round 2 of the drug and I am at 3cm. Not much progress for 4 hours. So we wait another 4 hours. By hour 3 I am having some pretty intense contractions. By intense I mean crying and throwing up due to pain (too much info? Too bad, it gets worse). They check me after hour 4 and I am still at 3cm. What?? I feel like I'm dying! They offer me pain meds in my IV and I turn them down. Only to tell Jason to give me the drugs about 30 mins later. They give me some pain meds and I feel immediate relief... for 30 mins. Then the contractions are back in full force. They try another pain med and it doesn't even touch these bad boys. Then they offer me an epidural. Which my first thought was no, I don't want it to wear off by the time I actually deliver. But then another contraction hit and I told them I wanted it. I would deal with delivery pain when I got there. By this time, I was so tired and loopy from the pain and pain meds they gave me. I actually fell asleep while they were giving me the epidural. Hands on Jason's knees, (who, by the way, was my rock and such a wonderful encouragement through all my pain) I was out. I woke up a few seconds later to the pain subsiding and I feel like a person again.

They forego the third round of the induction drug because I am already having such bad contractions. They also told me they wouldn't put me on Pitocin (drug that makes you have contractions) until after he was born. They had planned on starting it after the 3rd round of induction drugs.

So, we are at about 11:30pm, about 30 mins after my epidural, I get startled awake by, what felt like, me peeing my pants. I can't really feel anything below my waist, so I page the nurse. She comes in and tells me that my water broke. Really? I am only at 3cm. I fall back asleep, only to be startled awake again by a intense feeling of pressure. I page the nurse again, she checks me and is really surprised to find I am at 8cm. It is just before midnight. A few minutes later, she tells me that she is going to put me on oxygen because the baby's heart rate is dropping. She tries to adjust the doppler on my stomach and can't find a heart beat. She excuses herself and I start to freak out. The midwife comes in and tells me that because he is in some distress we aren't going to wait for me to get to 10cm, we are going to get him out now.

I won't go into any of the gorey, painful details, but after about an hour and a half, my little boy FINALLY makes his debut into this world at 1:15am. I immediately get to hold him and see his beautiful face. Words can not express the flood of emotions I felt when I held him for the first time. Jason cut his cord and they take him away to do their work up on him. While I was holding him and not feeling anything below the waist, the midwife is a bit nervous. I had a small placental tear, which, if big enough, can cause some major problems. Thankfully, she got it under control and I had no complications. I had no idea this was happening, but Jason was pretty freaked out about it. I would have been, too, if I had known. After a few hours of recovery and first snuggles with our little blessing, we were moved into our recovery room for the next 48 hours.

Now, our little guy is 8 days old and is already developing a little personality. We are so happy to have him home before Christmas. We are excited to spend the day snuggling by a fire with the most precious gift we have ever been blessed with. Every time I look at him asleep in his bassinet, or even wailing at me for food, I am overwhelmed with love for this tiny human. It's amazing how such a tiny person can completely change our entire world! We wouldn't want it any other way.

Daddy holding his little man for the first time.

Sleeping arrangements at home. Can't have him out of my sight for too long.

My favorite picture of him (so far). He looks so happy, just like his Mama!!

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Two Years (on fire again)

Two years ago today, I walked down the aisle and married the love of my life. Now, I am sitting in a home that we own, growing a tiny human inside me (still freaks me out a little.) A lot of people use the phrase "I never thought I would be here" but I thought by now we would already have a baby in our arms. But God definitely had different plans for us, and we couldn't be happier with them :)

For our anniversary, that we celebrated this past weekend, we went to Manitou Springs and ate at the Mona Lisa. Everyone told us it was just like the Melting Pot, but I thought it was so much better! Pretty pricey, but it was our anniversary.... and we had a coupon. For our anniversary, Jason got me a beautiful throw with some of the best pictures from our wedding on it. It's amazing! I didn't think he could ever top last years painting, but he did! I got him an espresso maker, which was for him, but I definitely use it. He has been telling me how much he wants one for months, plus it will cut back on the amount we spend at Starbucks ;) It made me feel good this past weekend, he was walking into the house about to get a coffee refill and said "best gift ever" YESSS! I did good, too.

Heading out to dinner!

Showing off the bump in an amazingly comfy
maternity dress!

Outside at our table. It was a gorgeous evening!

Love this guy :)

In baby news, I am officially done with my first trimester. Thank the Lord! I had a rough time at the beginning. With morning sickness, severe cramping, nausea, back pain, fatigue... you name it, I probably suffered with it. I just kept reminding myself it was worth it, and it was! I would (and probably will) go through it all again. Tomorrow I will be 14 weeks and the baby will be the size of a nectarine. We are beyond anxious to find out the gender, we are hoping to find out at my 16 week appointment, but it is looking like we will have to wait until the 20 week full anatomy ultrasound. I guess we can be patient. 

Last year I wrote a blog called One Year on Fire, where we celebrated our one year anniversary and the next day had to evacuate due to the Waldo Canyon Fire. Well, this year I could write one called Two Years on Fire (which after writing this, I kinda did). Most of you know that Colorado Springs had another huge wildfire that took the lives of two people and destroyed over 500 homes. But, it was so heartwarming seeing the community come together and support those who lost everything. The families who lost their homes last year in the fire, hosted a picnic for all the families who are in the exact same position this year. I am sure it would help ease the pain talking to someone who knows what you are going through and rose from the ashes. Not only does this community support the victims of the fire, they support our firefighters like nothing I have ever seen. The firefighters would do a shift change at a local high school, once the community found this out, there were hundreds of people with thank you signs at every shift change. Here are a couple photos I found from the Denver Post from the week of the fire.

Just part of the almost 15,000 acres that were destroyed. 

I love seeing this, this home was protected by firefighters.
They let the fire get as close as possible so it wouldn't catch again.

This summer/fall is going to be insanely busy for us. On Saturday Jason's parents are driving in from Washington to spend about 10 days with us. They will be here for the 4th of July. We are so excited to see them! Then 3 days after they head home, we fly to California for my dad's 60th birthday! August I head back to California for my best friend, Alex's, bridal shower!!! So excited she's getting married!! Then October I have my baby shower, then the next weekend it is back to California for Alex and Doug's wedding!! Then we are two months from having a little baby Gabrick. I have never been so excited for Christmas to get here ;)